urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like But I'm grounded Zakariah "Zak" Adama 2009-08-02T21:38:27Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:3968 2009-08-02T21:38:27Z 2009-08-02T21:38:27Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />Moira,<br /><br />I have no excuse for being so absent and negligent. I do have an apology though, and possibly a groveling. So I was wondering if you would like to go out to dinner sometime so I can do so properly. If you don't want to, I understand completely.<br /><br />- Zak urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:3839 2009-02-06T02:32:12Z 2009-02-06T02:37:12Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><a href="http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v185/IdleImp/?action=view&amp;current=032.jpg" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v185/IdleImp/032.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:3470 2009-01-28T22:01:18Z 2009-01-28T22:01:18Z Leland. Joseph. Adama.<br /><br /><i>'tá tú fuilteach amadán.</i><br /><br />That is all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:3232 2009-01-21T00:32:24Z 2009-01-21T00:32:49Z I kinda miss it.<br /><br /><b>[Private]</b><br /><br />I've been staring at the screen for about an hour. There's a lot I want to write, but I can't get it out.<br /><br />Frak it. I'll read a book.<br /><b>[End Private]</b> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:2581 2008-12-31T14:33:49Z 2008-12-31T14:33:49Z <b>Private to Moira</b><br /><br />How are those books? :)<br /><br />More importantly, I haven't gotten to ask. How are <i>you</i>? I mean, with everything that happened while shopping. Lee means well, when he says blunt crap like that. But it's usually because he's willing to ask the questions that no one else quite wants to. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:2312 2008-12-13T00:08:21Z 2008-12-13T00:11:28Z I've taken to listening to music online. It's nice. Anybody heard of Smashing Pumpkins? No? They're good. The lead singer's voice is interesting Here's one of their songs. <br /><br />Give me tears, give me love <br />Let me rest, Lord above <br />Send the bored, your restless <br />The feedback scarred <br />Devotionless <br /><br />You're all a part of me now <br />And if I fall <br />You're all a part of me now <br />In the sun <br />You're all a part of me now <br />You're all a part of me now <br /><br />Will our love ever be enough <br />Just in time to prove <br />Will our words ever be enough <br />Just in time to lose<br /> <br />Give me sight and barren breast <br />Pure snow and happiness <br />Give me time, give me peace <br />And I will prove my release <br /><br />You're all a part of me now <br />And if I fall <br />You're all a part of me now <br />Trapped in the sun <br />You're all a part of me now <br />You're all a part of me now <br /><br />Will our love ever be enough <br />Just in time to prove <br />Will our time ever be enough <br />Will out love ever be enough <br /><br />You're all a part of me now <br />And if I fall <br />You're all a part of me now <br />In the sun <br />You're all a part of me now <br />You're all a part of me now <br />You're all a part of me now <br />And if I fall <br />You're all a part of me now <br />Trapped in the sun <br />You're all a part of me now <br />Will our love ever be enough <br />Just in time to prove<br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br /><b>Private to Self</b><br /><br />I punched Lee last nite. I don't think we've had a physical fight since..Gods, I don't even remember the last time. He said something that really upset me. When'd he get so good at doing that? <br /><br />He says things have changed. He thinks that I don't know.<br /><br />I don't think any of them understand how much I get that. Sometimes I think I'm the only one who really does. Because they got to grow together, see the changes. See the why behind the changes. I wake up <i>on Earth</i> and with people who I know. But I don't know. And I'm trying, but they make it hard. Well. Lee and Kara do. Surprisingly, the old man is a little easier. Isn't that a switch? But it's not the point.<br /><br />The point is that-- Well, I don't know what the point is. Not anymore. I just know that there are so many things unsaid and I don't know how to say them. <br /><br />I should talk with Moira about this. I've been spending more time with her. I like her. I do. Since I got interrogated by Severus about her, I'd hope that I do. But there's still the matter of Kara. She--<br /><br />Well, she still won't really talk to me. Anyone, I guess, from the sound of it. Lee's urging me to go for Moira. <s>Because he's still in love with Kara.</s> He thinks I don't understand. The change. I think he doesn't understand that it's only been three months for me. And while I haven't been running for my life or chasing toasters, it's still..<br /><br />It's still difficult. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:2188 2008-11-28T20:43:09Z 2008-11-28T20:43:09Z <b>Private to the Colonials</b><br /><br />I've been told that people disappear from here..<br /><br />And come back.<br /><br />Thoughts? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:1813 2008-11-12T22:24:35Z 2008-11-12T22:24:35Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><br />zak is a big poop head <br />zak is photogenic<br />zak is a sexual beast in his comeback<br />zak is roughly talking about is a form of "psychic attack"<br />zak is everywhere<br />zak is handing out brownies to the surprised<br />zak is on the only track with drums<br />zak is back<br />zak is totally obsessed with nala<br />zak is lucky<br />zak is able to go home again<br />zak is a psychic whose mind<br />zak is head of poland's top private broadcaster telewizja polsat<br />zak is exaggerating<br />zak is the man we all turn to when we want the impossible achieved<br />zak is already a familiar face in the lineup at durban's new pier<br />zak is a border collie/mix<br />zak is singing<br />zak is cold and aloof<br />zak is a website dedicated to creative and artistic web design<br />zak is still growing quickly<br />zak is a conventional teen who is smart<br />zak is black and white with blue eyes and somewhat of a bandit mask around his eyes<br />zak is freakin' great<br />zak is an attorney and writer<br />zak is featured in the book<br />zak is only 26 years old<br />zak is a human who seems like a good person<br />zak is the hero who saves the day<br />zak is a cool name<br />zak is out of hyper<br />zak is an artist in body and soul<br />zak is widely held to be a better drummer than his<br />zak is very special<br />zak is a fictional forensic neuropsychologist<br />zak is a totally engaging guy<br />zak is thrown into cryogenic suspension for three years<br />zak is rooting around in the basement looking for stuff to sell on ebay when he finds what looks like big digital<br /><a name='cutid1-end'></a><br /><br />I'm amused. A lot. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:1571 2008-11-10T19:18:11Z 2008-11-10T19:18:11Z <a name="cutid1"></a><br /><b>[Private to Self]</b><br /><br />I’ve been here about a month. A month that I shouldn’t be living at all. I’m thankful to the Gods for it, but still wonder why the frak I’m here. Especially when..well, you know. When it seems to be more trouble than not sometimes. <br /><br />I guess it's just trouble because they've all been through so much. Shit that I really can't understand. I just see the differences. Pop's..older. Tired. He's not Zeus anymore, like I told Lee. But maybe it's good for him. Gods know that he holed up in his office or his ships too much when we were kids. <br /><br />Lee. It's weird, living with him again. We were sort of drifting apart before all of this even. I know why now. He's in love with Kara. My Kara. Who's..not mine. And..frak. <br /><br />I love her. I always will. But maybe Lee's right. Just a little. They don't belong here. I don't belong here. Not really. Or maybe I belong here and they don't. Either way, I don't have a place in her life. In their lives. Not beyond their time here. So maybe I should just let her go and go forward here.<br /><br />Lee says they'll be back. It's a nice thought, but it's big brother protecting me again. This isn't their Earth. As much as I want it to be, it's not. If it was, then why am I here? Earth is supposed to be this place full of life. Not filled with ghosts. Even if it was, where is everyone else? All the other people from our worlds, our colonies, long gone to Elysium. And yet, here I am. It's said that Athena and Prometheus made us..breathed life into us. Did They see fit to breathe life into me once again? <br /><br />But I'm here, and they'll leave. Which is probably why it's good to make connections with other people here. I like the town. It's odd, but there are nice people. Moira's <s>pretty</s> fun. And nice. Lee said that she was making eyes at me, but I think he's being a jackass.<br /><br />I have more to say, but I have to get to work. It's a temporary thing, helping rebuild places that were messed up by the earthquake, but it's money. I'll try to write again tonite. While Lee's asleep or something.<br /><b>[End Private]</b><br /><a name='cutid1-end'></a><br /><br />Leland. Have you seen that trenchcoat I bought? <br /><br /><b>[Private to Kara Thrace]</b><br /><br />Olly olly oxen free. We need to talk, and I'm debating about simply raiding your apartment. Just letting you know.<br /><br /><b>[Private to Lulu]</b><br /><br />That was a fun party. Thanks for throwing it.<br /><br /><s>So Moira..</s> Moira said her birthday was in December. Any suggestions on what to get her? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:1464 2008-10-29T21:56:28Z 2008-10-29T22:00:16Z I know it's last minute. But any ideas for costumes?<br /><br />..<small>I was thinking about being a ghost. [Deleted] Lee'd kill me. Again..[End Deleted] </small><br /><br /><b>[Private to Lee]</b><br /><br />I know you're not loving your ghost of a brother, but there's this thing this weekend. The Halloween party?<br /><br />It'd be really fun if you'd go. I'm going.<br /><br />It'd also be really fun if you gave the old man a break and went to his little get-together. Where else other than Earth are we going to do family shit like this? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:1109 2008-10-18T06:20:02Z 2008-10-18T06:20:02Z Everyone okay?<br /><br />Thanks to Doc Pierce for letting the kid help out. I'm glad I didn't get too in the way.<br /><br />[Private to Kara]<br />You alright? And..we should talk, hm? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:791 2008-09-18T03:19:14Z 2008-09-18T03:28:10Z Singing? Really?<br /><br />It was frakking funny, at least.<br /><br /><small>[deleted] Except for the whole singing my heart out to Lee thing.[/deleted]</small><br /><br />Is there anywhere I could get a job, maybe as a language professor? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:icarus_like:512 2008-09-12T17:36:55Z 2008-09-12T17:36:55Z <small>[Zak, not reading the introduction, has no clue this is hooked up to others]</small><br /><br />When I was little, Lee and I would listen to stories about Earth with that kid's rapture. But I grew up and realised that it was a dream. A nice dream, but a dream all the same. <br /><br />Then I grow up a little more and find out it's real. Except..not. Is it the Afterlife, like Lee thinks? I don't know. If what he says is true (which has got to be. Lee wouldn't lie) then where is everyone else? Or maybe there's different versions of Earth. I don't know.<br /><br />..I kind of hope that this isn't the afterlife. Maybe it was my time. But not theirs. Not hers. <br /><br />And, by the Gods, making us work in the Afterlife? Where's the rest? The relaxation? <br /><br />On the other hand, at least Earth is pretty. Lee and I walked around a bit together. We're waiting for Kara to get off of work.